::::Groan::::
I’m back to
wearing Maypop jeans. My Maypops. Jeans that may pop anytime. Addiction doesn’t care that not so long ago, these
tight jeans were a little loose.
Who knew
that getting back on the wagon after a fall would be much more difficult than
the first time up there? Addiction doesn’t
care that I’d rather be riding in the wagon than walking this road.
Addiction
screams in my head until I give in, then it promptly chastises me for being
weak, and tells me how worthless I am.
It doesn’t care that I beat yourself up with guilt.
Orlando...I think...definitely Florida.
Addiction doesn’t care that no
matter how I try,
I can’t make a humorous post about
addiction.
So, I’ll just have write a positive
post.
When I wake
up in the morning, I wish that I wanted to act right, but I really want to
eat. It’s the sugar in me…and addiction
doesn’t care that it takes my focus off of God and onto myself and my need
desire to feed.
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| Central Florida Zoo |
I’m about
to get angry at addiction, not that addiction cares. But as a child of God, I do not have to lie
down and continue to give into the sin and shame of gluttony. I am not a slave to sin, and it is for
freedom that Christ set me free.
Addiction doesn’t care that it gets in my way of remembering all the
good things, the promises that I have available. I don’t have to continue to walk in addiction,
when Freedom Road has an address with my name on it! That’s right, addiction, I have a home on
Freedom Street, not skid row!
Addiction
doesn’t care that God longs to change me, if I will let Him. I am sure He is teaching me things as I
struggle; it’s up to me to learn and stop struggling, to be still and know that
He is God. Addiction doesn’t care about
me, but God does.
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| Deibert Park...love the reflection! |
Forgive me
as I post, yet again, the poem I wrote in 2009…because it’s something I need
desperately to remember.
No Survivor Am I
My worth isn’t
measured by my current condition,
Opinions
of others, or my present position.
Though
my foot may slip, I am not incomplete,
My
failures are never my final defeat.
By
God’s grace, I’ll dance though the fire,
Knowing
by faith I’ll not drown in the mire.
A
survivor is never what I shall be
But
a powerful overcomer for others to see.
My
suffering, I’ll know, was never in vain,
Seeing
someone’s miracle brought out of my pain.
My
destiny isn’t sealed by today’s situation,
For
my current position is not my final destination.
Have a great weekend!!