Oh, The Sticky Web

I got caught in the web!  I was totally unaware that I was snared until I was completely nestled deep in the cocoon of that familiar place called Binge, the pit I called "Home" for years.   Excuses?   Yeah, I have them, a whole list!

• I relaxed on not eating carbs.
• I suffered a stress fracture and an arthritically painful ankle joint, which kept me from walking.
• I ate sugar, thinking that I was strong enough to walk on the edge of addiction and not fall in.
• I fell in.  
• I thought I’d pulled myself out until…
• Someone hurt my feelings.  It felt a lot better to eat than to not eat…especially since I was already in the pit.

The 90 pounds I had previously is less than 80 now.

I am refusing to weigh for a few days.

One thing I’ve noticed on this downward spiral is that not only did my old eating habits come back full force (a place I NEVER thought I’d be again) but so did my “stinking thinking.”    I didn’t binge every day these past weeks, but I relied on myself to climb out of this pit, and it’s too slippery a slope for me to get out on my own strength.

I’m back at Square One, 

and that’s a much better place to be than the pit.  

I wanted so much to believe that I could have my sugar and eat it, too...but at this point I don't think I can.  I feel better physically, I am in a better mental place when I am sugar free.  One year ago, I would have told you that giving up sugar was NOT freedom...it was the staple of my diet!  I have since changed my mind.  If you are struggling with your weight, I implore you to seek Christ first...He is your answer...and listen when you start getting the answers you seek.   You may not like it (at first).  I rebelled against giving up sugar for years!  It really is worth it.

In April, I wrote the following "Zingers."  I have added one at the bottom and reposted today.   

• It’s going to take more time than you planned for or wanted it to.
• If you weigh every day, be prepared for fluctuations and say no to discouragement.  Patience is vitally important.
• You may possibly temporarily gain weight with exercise.
• There will be days you don’t do everything “right.”
• There will be days you don’t do anything “right.”
• If you rely on your own strength, you will invariably struggle.
• If you rely on God’s strength, you can pick up on Monday where you left off on Friday…after that weekend food-fest.   And He will help you to overcome those overdone weekends and/or nights.
• God hears every prayer for freedom, but He requires you to believe that you have what He has already paid for with the blood of His son, our precious Jesus.
• You will hit plateaus.
• Some plateaus last a long time.   Again, patience.
• You may need to give up sugar.  It certainly helped me.
• You can do this…even if you need to lose 175 pounds.
• You don’t have to wait until Monday to start.
• You don’t have to wait until tomorrow to restart.
• When you fall (and you probably will), reach for Jesus, He is your Rock.